initially, your fear of not receiving drops
later, you've to move forwards
for everyone applause

however & whatever,
you've a price to pay
the following are your rewards

your reputation has moved upward
hence you can't look down
on those outside your ward

you can't lean backward
for everyone outside your ward
is expecting you to move forward

after you've received an award
the best thing is to forget
what you've got

after you've received an award
if you stand still & halt
you can be considered as a coward

indeed, is it really an award
the judges' fault
or a price you never had want to sought?